move on

i must move on. damn why is it so hard??????? i pray i can make through it. best of luck!!!!!!

ending

one of my journey comes to an end. its true. when we realised this, i felt... disappointed but relieved. i finally know that a relationship is not only about a boy and a girl.. there's more to consider. i cant blame anything or anyone.

i m always blessed to have a bunch of brothers and good friends that always supports me on everything i did. i know there's critics too.. i really dont know why, but seriously i think i m not the guy that u thought i were. i advice u to talk according to facts but not what u think.. because your instincts are really... suck. anyway u might be correct too.. thanks for those critics. i will definitely learn something from it.

thank you guey lun mei for eveything.. i m serious. everything u did, everything u thought and everything u told me. the reason i m not sooooo sad is because of what u told me. i believe that those words are true. i m still learning to cope in my current lifestyle.. i know u can cope better. take care.

i want to thank everyone again for the last time in this story of mine. i m not a lonely person because i have many great friends that will always hold me when i m drifting. thanks. till the next story!

ending

one of my journey comes to an end. its true. when we realised this, i felt... disappointed but relieved. i finally know that a relationship is not only about a boy and a girl.. there's more to consider. i cant blame anything or anyone.

i m always blessed to have a bunch of brothers and good friends that always supports me on everything i did. i know there's critics too.. i really dont know why, but seriously i think i m not the guy that u thought i were. i advice u to talk according to facts but not what u think.. because your instincts are really... suck. anyway u might be correct too.. thanks for those critics. i will definitely learn something from it.

thank you guey lun mei for eveything.. i m serious. everything u did, everything u thought and everything u told me. the reason i m not sooooo sad is because of what u told me. i believe that those words are true. i m still learning to cope in my current lifestyle.. i know u can cope better. take care.

i want to thank everyone again for the last time in this story of mine. i m not a lonely person because i have many great friends that will always hold me when i m drifting. thanks. till the next story!

31-12-2011

the last day of 2011 is a special day for me and ke lin, because this is the first time we went out for a date! i had never thought that she would accept my offer (because she turned down my offer sooo many times) i m truly blessed.

she wore a cute white shirt with ribbons and she look like an angel. haha. everything went out nice and she said she's happy that day. i m relieved. there is one part that i m kinda shocked that she nearly cried. hey its not what i want to do ok.. because i m just answering her question.

i m blessed that i can talk face to face with the girl i like, no more guessing games. but i m still confused with the fact that what am i to her? i do not know whether will she believe we can solve the major problem we r facing or not and i do not know whether did she think about this issue or not. i really dont know what status we r in right now. very good friends? ever her friend and she admits that now we are doing things that r beyond friendship. so what are we now?

maybe we'll solve this on the next date..

Gratitude

many things happened recently. the outcomes came out better than i expected.

sometimes, i felt do i deserve all this? having a great bunch of brothers, friends, and guey lun mei.

i know i m not the best yet, and i always did the wrong and sinful things.

i m grateful that god always help me and give me the best he can give to me, despite that i m a bad boy.

i hope the coming exam will also be something good.

thank you guey lun mei for giving me a chance. lets follow the flow, without any forcing. i hope the outcome will be the one that i expected, but we cant confirm on this on this. i will try my very best on doing anything for the best of us.

thank you my brothers for helping me, especially xiu hong for all the guidance, jia yap for the petrol and time, cin yan for the direction, and fu yuan for feeling happy about this issue.

thank you sor wen for patting on my back and making me decided to go there. thank you kimmy for listening to my stories. i also thank chai fook for the help all the time.

thank you kah seng for giving me tips on what to do, and thank you kah king for your loudspeaker.

i thank pn pua for always supporting me, and let me choose the thing that i like.

thanks kai ning for helping me for the preparation on presents, teaching me how to do the cake.

thanks GRAVITY for turning my cake into another special cake.

thank you everyone.

gap

am i still not good enough? i wonder why people judge us like this? do i deserve to have it?

sometimes i feel very tired. sometimes i feel like resting and ignore everything.

even superman will also get tired someday. i will keep on do my best. but i hope we wont drag this too long.

i m sorry... i will try my best.

The Best

"everyone have weakness."

"you cannot please every single human being."

i think this is just an excuse.

u cant, but u gotta TRY.

i will try to be the best guy anyone had ever met.

i'll try to be better, to enlighten and be enlightened every single day.

i just want to be the very best... haha

i know i'm not now, but i hope i will be close to one soon :D